はとりゆみ Hatori Yumi

aimless

2012-01-15T21:01:00.002+08:00

It seems like everyone has a goal in mind and is clear in the path they are going to take...but what about me? How do i find out? My thoughts are unclear...

me

2011-12-02T20:20:00.002+08:00

The year of 2011 is like a year of change for me...i feel that i have changed the most this year to the extent that i don't feel like myself anymore. Others may not see the 'change' in me, but i definitely see the change in me. If the change was good, everything would be fine...but the problem is that it is not. I'm losing passion in things...i'm losing my drive...

feeling blue...

2011-09-10T18:47:00.002+08:00

unpredictable

2011-06-06T16:39:00.004+08:00

Life is just so unpredictable...one moment you are there...and the next...you are gone...forever..

昨晚，当我的眼皮跳时，我就知道将会有不好的事情发生。。。谁知，还真准。。。只不过，这件事却是完全出乎我意料之外的。。。果然。。。还是那句话：世事难料。。。=,[

二叔公

PW results

2011-04-10T14:39:00.001+08:00

Got back my PW results on Fri 8/4. Two words for it. "Happy" and "Satisfied". =D

From a Distance

2011-03-12T14:49:00.003+08:00

From a Distance by Bette Midler

From a distance the world looks blue and green,
and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,
and the eagle takes to flight.

From a distance, there is harmony,and it echoes
through the land.

It's the voice of hope, it's the voice of peace,
it's the voice of every man.

From a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,

no hungry mouths to feed.

From a distance we are instruments
marching in a common band.
Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They're the songs of every man.
God is watching us. God is watching us.
God is watching us from a distance.

From a distance you look like my friend,
even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehend
what all this fighting is for.

From a distance there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
And it's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves,
it's the heart of every man.

It's the hope of hopes, it's the love of loves.
This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,
God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.
God is watching us from a distance

周杰伦 - 稻香

2011-01-29T16:08:00.004+08:00

歌名：稻香

主唱：周杰伦

歌词：

Verse 1

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢继续往前走

为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落

请你打开电视看看

多少人为生命在努力勇敢地走下去

我们是不是该知足

珍惜一切就算没有拥有

Chorus

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡

随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑

乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧回到最初的美好

Verse 2

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的

追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了

为自己的人生鲜艳上色

先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧功成名就不是目的

让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义

童年的纸飞机现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐

赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了

谁在偷笑呢

我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了

哦哦午后吉他在虫鸣中更清脆

哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎

珍惜一切就算没有拥有

Chorus x2

-End-

Chem lecture

2011-01-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

Today's not a very good day for me...i was actually called up in chem lecture to write my ans...the probability of being called up in a chem lecture is like...so small out of the hundreds of students...plus i'm feeling so uncomfortable now...

Open House

2011-01-13T23:10:00.001+08:00

Open House yesterday was great!!! I had fun!

Happy New Year

2010-12-31T23:01:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year in advance! Hope the year of 2011 will be a great year!

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

Merry X'mas! =D

难以言语

2010-12-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

明天就是圣诞节了。。。时间过得还真不是一般的快。。。没过几天新的一年又要降临了。回顾过去一年的时间，我想，不仅仅是岁数上的增长，在心灵，思绪上，似乎也‘长大’了那么一点点。不仅如此，我更加认清了自己的不足之处，无论是在人际关系上，或是学业上。我，并不善于表达我自己，甚至很多时候把到嘴的话又再次的咽回肚里。我，真的很希望自己能够变得更活泼，乐观，勇敢。。。真的好想把埋藏在心底的话都说出来呀。。。有的时候还真的觉得自己的心随时都有可能爆开似的。。。真的，有好多好多的话，对我而言，难以启齿呢。。。。。

me..

2010-11-20T18:45:00.006+08:00

在出现问题时，我害怕了，愤怒了，难过了，也哭了。。。

I never once thought that things would end just like that...i have been reflecting...i really did...and this is what i came up with:

1. All along, i was the one that was receiving the most

2. I took things for granted

一份感情需要双方面的付出才能够维持下去。。。我付出的不够，我很抱歉。

我的个性，不允许我轻易向别人倾诉；不允许我轻易在人面前流泪。。。所以，我只能把想说的话往肚里吞；在别人不注意的时候哭。。。

我的个性，让我很辛苦。。。

OP

2010-11-12T18:37:00.001+08:00

Finally...i'm done with OP...my nightmare...and now, i'm just left with InR and the GPF...and it will be 'sayonara' to PW! Can't wait for it to be over......

confuse

2010-10-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

Why am I so confused? What exactly am I confused about??...What should I do?...I'm all mixed up......

paser laba army camp

2010-10-07T18:31:00.002+08:00

Went to an army camp that trains sergeants and specialists yesterday...it's a sort of a school trip. Anyway,I found it quite interesting for some parts...we got the chance to try firing using the rifles that the army boys got to train with...it's real heavy for some. Also, we learnt about the various ranks and their 'symbols'. We tried the food they ate in army camp. I think that the food is okay if it is eaten only for one meal or a day...but i can't imagine eating it every single day. Then there's all the diff. gadgets they use to communicate with each other during war time or so...and there's the extremely heavy vest they got to wear...though i didn't try it on myself...hmmm...i think that's about it...Oh. Almost forgot...we also visited their bunks...there's an average of 14 to 16 beds if i didn't rmb wrongly for each room...the bed is quite comfortable. Haha. Anyway, each of them is given a mosquito net...and there's their individual closet/locker that is compartmentalized...and there's 2 tables of four for them to supposedly do their hw in each bunk. They also have very specific ways to arrange their uniforms, shirts, shoes, etc. In short, in the army camp it's really all about discipline...

inspirational quote 1

2010-09-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

"To make mistakes is human; to stumble is commonplace; to be able to laugh at yourself is maturity." -- William A. Ward

ACES day

2010-08-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

Learning the ACES day dance is so much more fun in MJ!

tired

2010-08-22T00:22:00.001+08:00

I feel so tired...i don't want to fail...i hope it's still not too late...

wrong

2010-07-24T19:18:00.001+08:00

There's just something wrong with me which i simply just can't put it into words... =[

SPA

2010-07-16T21:09:00.002+08:00

Today is not the best of day for me. I just can't do my SPA for Bio and Chem well....i'm really really very worried now...what can i do? Plus, for Bio SPA today, when returning the apparatus, i totally forgot and didn't see the glass rod in the basket....and when i overturn the basket the glass rod just smashed onto the ground.....just why am i so careless and clumsy?? =((((

blue

2010-07-01T20:58:00.001+08:00

I need more BLUE....

....

2010-06-30T20:10:00.002+08:00

.......................................好难过。。。。却需要强颜欢笑。。只为了不让他们担心。。。

laughter

2010-06-17T19:32:00.001+08:00

...almost died from laughter today......

Kids Connect Day Camp 1

2010-06-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

Today was a pretty okay day for me...some 'up' and some 'down'...anyway, the most terrible thing that happened to me today was that the strap of my sandals broke (for both foot), and i actually have no choice but to go bare-footed home...walking and taking the bus...a once in a lifetime experience? haha. maybe bah.

blessed

2010-05-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

Some people are blessed in a way such that the things that they want, they are able to get it...

tired

2010-05-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm tired...and it seems like i'm evolving into a pig......Zzzzzz

b-day

2010-04-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

Woke up this morning feeling a bit moody, i'm yet 1 year older.....and to add on to this moodiness, first period of the day:chem tutorial-got back my chem lecture test 2 and it's a 'U' grade; math lecture test-totally screwed...i can only score at most 2/21......=[

But still, thanks to all those people who wished me and for the presents and the b-day song! Thanks lots! =]

unhappy

2010-04-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

...not very happy these few days... =[

okay

2010-04-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

I believe

2010-04-02T20:11:00.007+08:00

I believe that when one door closes upon me, another will be open for me, even if it's only a window...

I believe that a plan has been laid out for everyone...

I believe that what's meant to be yours will be yours, and what's not meant to be yours won't ever be...

I believe that everything's fated, including the people who became your family, friends, classmates, the people who you met, the animals who became your pet, the things that became your 'stuff'...

And that's why, I try to take things in my stride...even when it's painful......

april...

2010-04-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

...first day for the month of april...and it's already going to be over soon......i'm afraid that i will go back to the way i was in the past...just when i'm starting to make a breakthrough...i can feel it in me...a 'push and pull' effect...i'm trying to make a breakthrough...and yet, i find myself withdrawing at the same time...who's the real me??...in constant doubt......

exco rally

2010-03-31T19:52:00.002+08:00

...I've said something I shouldn't have, didn't I?...So sorry...but it really wasn't on purpose...anyway, I keep telling myself: It's okay to fail, at least I have taken the first step...Yes, it's hard, for me at least, but I really did felt a sense of 'achievement', since that wasn't normal and easy for me...

MJCO camp + airport

2010-03-28T01:50:00.004+08:00

MJCO camp ended yesterday ard 5.30pm, since friday 2.30pm. Overall it was quite fun. Anw, the camp grp that i was in came in first! Haha. After CO camp ended, me and meiting bathed in sch before going to changi airport straight to send adele off. She's going to Australia to study. It was such a rush. And the worst thing was that we actually had to walk a big round to get to the 'shower rm' as there were dead ends everywhere.We actually had to walk out of sch from the side gate and go in from the gate that leads to the track...
Anyway, we finally reached T3 at abt 6.30pm-6.45pm and spotted the rest near the food court. Adele checked in at abt 7.40pm. After which, some of us went to Mac for dinner...'cause the food court was super crowded, and we stayed there until around 9.30pm before going home...
Besides, I also saw somebody at T3...meiting was the one who saw it first...then she pointed it out to me before i realised who that was...haha...lucky never spot us in MJ shirts.

Smile Again

2010-03-18T15:05:00.002+08:00

《小豬的教室》の劇中曲—「Smile Again」

Verse 1

Even though I am not so great
And look so insignificant
Like I am the only bad person
Sometimes I will think this way

I’m afraid that I will not smile again from the bottom of my heart
That will be such a sad thing

Until tomorrow (until tomorrow)
The sky will be clear (the sky will be clear)
I will like myself
And start all over again

CHORUS
Smile again smile again
And don’t be dejected in spirit/depressed
Smile again smile again
And let me see the smile
Smile again smile again
No matter what you are like
Everyone will like this you

CHORUS X1

Verse 2
Gentle words
Will also have times whereby it is not effective
If we are fighting by ourselves
There will also be times when we cannot do it

Some things need to go through painful times to be able to see it
If that’s the case
You will surely become a better you than the you today

Until tomorrow (until tomorrow)
The sky will be clear (the sky will be clear)
I will like myself
And start all over again

CHORUS
Smile again smile again
And don’t be dejected in spirit/depressed
Smile again smile again
And let me see the smile
Smile again smile again
No matter what you are like
Everyone will like this you

CHORUS X1

tms carnival

2010-03-13T19:17:00.002+08:00

Went for the tms carnival today with ena and sufen plus last minute call for shimin to join us. Saw friends, ex-classmates and some of the teachers there too. It was fun! =] Had a great time there... Anyway, mdm wan and ena's father even commented that i have lost weight(which i don't think i really have...]. On the whole, it's nice to be back as an ex-temasekian... =]

tired..

2010-03-11T19:20:00.002+08:00

......tired already when i've only attended school for like 1 and half months....how am i going to survive the rest of my time in mjc...i really don't know... anw, i guess i'm feeling happy in that sch despite the stress...that should be enough...

CNY holidays

2010-02-17T17:51:00.006+08:00

Ok...here's it: Went back to Kedah with my family for CNY on fri. and only came back on tues. It's been a long time(like 7 years) since i celebrated CNY in M'sia with my grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins there. It's awesome! 'cause it's like more people so more re(4) nao(4) over there then in S'pore. AND i actually learnt how to play cards(gamble) over there. I didn't think I would learn to. =]
Anw, on fri. night, upon reaching my uncle's house in K.L., while entering the lift, the door just closed on me while i was halfway through!(stupid lift, sensor spoilt!--and now i really have lift phobia despite the fact that i was already not very fond of taking lifts).
Although i had a great time in M'sia, something horrible actually took place on the night of Chinese New Year, 14 Feb 2010, 8+ pm...an accident occured and left a person dead...it was a hit-and-run...This accident happened just a few shops down and opposite from my grandparent's...i was watching tv when the thing happened...a loud 'bang' heard...the person knocked down was an indian middle aged man. He had a family. His son was crying for his dad when the man was declared dead...
That night, the sky was so clear that when you raise your head to the night sky, you could see a whole stretch of stars twinkling above...
Also, fireworks were seen being put off from the other side of town...celebrations carried on as they were not aware of the accident here...
However, what put me off most was the seriousness of racism...just because the person is of a different race than you or a race that you do not prefer doesn't mean you can just pretend and not offer to help...and the person who said this actually doesn't think it's wrong of him to say this......
It's just so sad to hear and see that...and according to my uncle who lives in this part of Kedah, this area is an accident prone area especially at night. And from what i see, it's not surprising as the area is not well lit by street lights, the fact that only one side of the road is lined with street lights and that most of the vehicles are speeding along this road......

*Each day, while we are happily living our lives, who knows, something devastating may be happening or have happened on the other side of the world...families may be grieving for their loved ones......*

I'm on my way

2010-01-30T12:46:00.006+08:00

I'm on my way by Sara Niemietz

When I wonder where I am

When I wonder why I take these chances

I try to breathe

I say to me, "believe"

And whatever comes, it's okay

'cause I'm on my way

To somewhere better

I'm further every day

I'm on my way

I know it might take until forever

But everything could change today

So I'm on my way

To find that place

People say that I'm naive

'cause I'm trusting and my heart is open

But I won't hide

I'm here to find who I am

And whatever comes is what's right

'cause I'm on my way

To somewhere better

I'm further every day

I'm on my way

I know it might take until forever

But everything could change today

So I'm on my way

To find that place

I'll keep dreaming

Till I get there

I'll be free

So goodbye to yesterday

I'm giving what it takes

'cause I'm on my way

To somewhere somewhere better

I'm on my way

It could take forever

(and everything could change)

It could change today

'cause I'm on my way

To find that place

MJC part 2

2010-01-29T20:01:00.002+08:00

Second day at Meridian: Feel so tired today...ended at around 5.10pm and reach home at about 6pm. Anyway, we were learning the college anthem, 2 different mass dance['Boom Boom Pow' and 'Fusion'] and 3 college cheers...It was quite fun. Besides, we also had a chance to know our OGLs and AGMs better...introduce oneself, playing games...the OGLs were so 'high', so much energy...they were really funny for some. As for the various houses, i think Triton[green] has the most 'high', and energetic people as compared to Atlas[yellow], Phobos[red], Callisto[blue] and Miranda[black]. However, i hope to get into Callisto...'cause the house colour is BLUE! =D

MJC

2010-01-28T17:41:00.003+08:00

Okay...here's it: First day at MJC, start of my JC1 year...it was quite alright...just have to listen to lots of talks and sit for so long...all the admin stuff.

At the end of the day: Truth to be told, i'm feeling afraid and insecured...frightened by the subjects and the unfamiliar faces and the unfamiliar surrounding...not much sense of direction...

Oh! And just wanna say: Pa Happy B-day! =D

JYPS

2010-01-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

Went back to JYPS with some others today...had a short tour round the new school building...chatted with some teachers...chatted among ourselves...went to Mac...chatted among ourselves again...walk abit...and finally went back home......

Anyway, the thing i like most of the new school building is the bridge......

sisters

2010-01-17T12:08:00.002+08:00

Know what? I've always been proud to have my sisters as my sisters....even though many times they really really get on my nerves and i can't wish more than for them to disappear......

My eldest sister's like the opposite of me...more outgoing, more humorous, more daring, and last but not least, more independent [in a sense].

I don't know how else to describe her...but really, my two sisters and I are nothing like each other, in terms of physical appearance [my eldest sister is taller, my second sister is 'rounder'] and personality, even though all of us can be pretty stubborn......

My eldest sister can be really nice if she want to, but when she's not, i can't stand her for even a single minute...... [maybe i'm like that as well]

As for my second sister, she's nicer more often...even though she's not like us [normal people]...However, maybe because of that, she's more honest with herself...simpler to understand and communicate, heart to heart....anyway, she really dotes on me....

Since young, i've always dislike others staring at her the way they do when we are outside...even though they may not mean any harm, still i just simply dislike that stare....Usually, when i notice people staring at her, i will glare back at them....irritating....

Anyhow, they are still my sisters...even when we do squabble......

O level results

2010-01-11T10:44:00.003+08:00

Getting back the long awaited O Level Results today, later at 2pm....so nervous...don't know what kind of results i will get back....hope it's not too bad....*pray*

start

2010-01-04T15:48:00.002+08:00

It's the start of a new school year again (not for me though)......the primary school kids are so cute......first day of school, talking about who's their various subject teacher, etc. It reminds me of my time when i was their age......so nice to be a small kid....

1st post of 2010

2010-01-02T17:24:00.002+08:00

Time really passes by really really fast......in a flash, and the 2nd day of 2010 will be over.........

last day of 2009

2009-12-31T10:55:00.001+08:00

...Today's already the last day of 2009......

went back

2009-12-27T18:36:00.003+08:00

My relatives from M'sia went back today after staying with us for about 5 days...now, my house is so quiet that it feels a bit weird...

~Fate let us be together as a family, fate let us be relatives, fate let us be friends, and fate, has brought all of us together...to meet each other and to participate in each's life~

X'mas eve

2009-12-24T18:59:00.001+08:00

X'mas eve's about to end soon...but X'mas's arriving!.......I'm bored....

rmb

2009-12-19T16:38:00.002+08:00

During my stay in my grandparents house in Malaysia, Kedah, I heard one of the songs from digimon. My 2 younger cousins were watching digimon season 2 on TV [the show was in Malay language, so i didn't understand what the characters were talking about]. Even so, i couldn't help but watch the cartoon with them. Just listening to the songs of the cartoon in jap was nice, like when they were evolving there's a song accompanied by it. Digimon was one of the earliest cartoon i watched last time with my sisters when we were young. So, to be able to hear the songs after so many years just feels real nice [i've almost forgotten].

[searching and listening to the songs right now after coming back] =d

pain

2009-12-17T09:53:00.002+08:00

The pain was unbearable...i couldn't sleep well...i couldn't eat that well...i couldn't move that much...i definitely do not want to experience the pain a 3rd time......

endings

2009-11-29T18:24:00.002+08:00

Everytime i read a storybook...i'm always afraid of the ending...i'm afraid of reading a sad ending...even though a sad ending teaches me that life is not always perfect and does not always end with a 'happily ever after'.

But still, i can't help it but be afraid of reading a not 'happily ever after' ending...

I know that it's ridiculous of me...a story's just a story...but still, it doesn't help.

Sometimes, this feeling starts after i've read like halfway through the book...sometimes at the very beginning...

It just makes me feel...all...sad, unhappy and everything...i don't like this......

。。。不知不觉，我的心弦已被那一行行的文字牵动着、拨弄着。。。

child

2009-11-26T15:43:00.005+08:00

Took the MRT to Bugis yesterday.

It was pretty cram and there was no seat available.

As usual, i stood next to a pole during the ride.

Then, at one of the station, a mother with her baby in a pram went on board the train.

There was no space inside and the baby pram was placed next to me.

The baby was so cute! It's a baby boy by the way. Wide-eyed.

I was holding onto the lower portion of the pole and suddenly the baby just grabbed the edge of my sling bag.

The mother was like saying sorry to me when she pulled the baby's hand away.

After which, the baby changed his 'target' and started playing with the zipper of a man's bag placed on the floor on the other side. lol.

As the train was approaching Bugis station, i paid no more attention to the baby. Instead, i was looking outside.

And guess what? The baby suddenly out of nowhere just grabbed one of my finger...

He's really very cute...i guess all babies are cute. =]

The mother must have felt a bit 'paiseh'. Haha.

天使与恶魔

2009-11-24T15:09:00.003+08:00

每个人的心中，都同时存在着一个天使与恶魔。

大部分的人，都会选择囚禁恶魔，只把自己天使的一面呈现出来。

这并不是不好，只是，过度的呈现天使的一面，似乎就会变成有点做作。

而有的时候，努力地想囚禁恶魔，却会成为一件非常辛苦的事。

人们内心的挣扎，又有几个人真正的了解？

这种天使与恶魔之间的战争，更不是三言两语便能向世人说明的。

只要一个人还活着，这个战争或许就会不断地持续下去，直到，生命的时钟停止运作为止。。。

The angel and the devil continues to exist in our hearts...

眼睛

2009-11-20T16:30:00.002+08:00

眼睛、通往心灵的一扇窗。

很多时候，我不知该把视线往哪处放。。。常常发现自己不知不觉地望着远处。。。走路时是这样；站在原地时也如此。。。

无法把视线移开；便会有种越陷越深至无法自拔的感觉。

对于某些人的眼睛，也一样。似乎有一个个漩涡的存在。

一个眼神，若用心去看，能诉说许多的秘密

Trust

2009-11-19T20:34:00.003+08:00

More often than not, we trust people a lot.

Like when we take the public transport.

Think about it.

If we did not trust the driver to abide by the 'rules', why would we trust them with our life?

只因为我们愿意相信，这个世界依旧很美好，人的本质依旧是“善”。

思考

2009-11-15T11:51:00.005+08:00

随着时间一分一秒地流失，

我的生命也在一点一滴地被消耗。

时间总是过得如此得快。

转眼间，我已完成了我生命中的其中一个阶段--中学生涯。

而，其余的也就只有等着拿成绩的那一天了。

不得不说，我在这四年里学到了很多，不单是知识方面。

此外，还结识了许多“新”人。

能在这相遇及认识，也是一种莫大的缘分，即使无法成为要好的朋友。

在这四年的时间里，说短不短，说长嘛，也不长，但却足以让我拥有了许多不一样的时光；有快乐的，忧愁的，疯狂的，丢脸的，不愉快的，等等，数不胜数。

这些回忆，或许在许多年后会变得模糊，但，我相信，曾经经历过的那些感觉，是不会被遗忘的。

或许，我并不是个很好的朋友，有时候也很自私，任性，但，请记得，曾经有个我当过你们生命中的过客。

“500次的轮回，得来今世擦肩而过；1000次的逆转，换来这生一次朋友”

O's ended

2009-11-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

Finally...O's over! Haha.

疯！

2009-10-20T20:13:00.002+08:00

啊！！！！！快疯了我！怎么办？我，现在思绪全乱透了。。。我也不知道自己要的是什么，期盼的又是什么。。。我，不知道我到底是个怎样的人。。。每每当我觉得认识了自己后，总又因为某些时而再次不认识自己。。。现在的我感到很迷惘，但，又有谁能帮帮我呢？然而，更令我心烦的，还是即将来临的大考。。。。。。=“[

reason

2009-09-18T18:41:00.006+08:00

I believe, that i will definitely find a reason to smile and laugh, even in difficult situations...我相信，我一定可以在困境中找到微笑的理由。。。

complicated

2009-09-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

......most things just seem to be going all wrong nowadays...the world's in chaos...my world's in chaos...my uncle and his wife with my grandmother......my grandfather in Malaysia....is it that everything's going wrong now...or is it that i have been simplifying things in the past?......i really think that i have changed most since last year...and i don't know if the change is for the better, or the worse......i really don't understand why things must be so complicated....why must we make things so complicated...won't it be better if everything's kept simple?...and if people doesn't change......

friends

2009-09-02T14:53:00.000+08:00

It's sad to see friends turn to foes......and it's even more frustrating to know that there's nothing one can do to help.....one just feel so helpless............are they really just friends for a season? I don't know......but i hope all my friends are for a lifetime......

Garnet song lyrics -The girl who leapt through time

2009-08-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

Lyrics

Garnet – ending song

Original / Romaji Lyrics

Guraundo kaketeku anata no senaka wa
Sora ni ukanda kumo yori mo jiyuu de
nooto ni naranda shikakui moji sae
Subete wo terasu hikari ni mieta
Suki to iu kimochi ga wakaranakute
Nidoto wa modoranai kono jikan ga
Sono imi wo atashi ni oshiete kureta
Anata to sugoshita hibi wo kono mune ni yaki tsukeyou
Omoi dasanakutemo daijoubu na you ni
Itsuka hoka no dareka wo suki ni natta toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kitsetsu ga megutteku
Hajimete futari de hanashita houkago
Dare mo shiranai egao sagashiteita
Tookude anata no hashaideru koe ni
Naze da ka mune ga itakunatta no
Kawatte yuku koto wo kowagatteta no
Zutto tomodachi no mama ireru kigashita
Owatteku mono nado nai to omotta
Hateshinai toki no naka de anata to deaeta koto ga
Nani yori mo atashi wo tsuyokushite kureta ne
Muchuu de kakeru ashita ni tadoritsuita toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kisetsu ga yatte kuru
Itsumademo wasurenai to anata ga itte kureta natsu
Toki ga nagare imagoro atashi wa namida ga koboretekita
Anata to sugoshita hibi wo kono mune ni yaki tsukeyou
Omoi dasanakutemo daijoubu na you ni
Itsuka hoka no dareka wo suki ni natta toshitemo
Anata wa zutto tokubetsu de taisetsu de
Mata kono kitsetsu ga megutteku

English Translation

As you were dashing on the ground, your back
Was freer then the clouds that floated in the sky
And in the light that illuminates everything, I could even see
The square letters lined up in your notebook
I didn't understand the feeling known as love
So this moment in time that wouldn't return again
Taught me its meaning
I'll sear the days that I spent with you into my chest
So that I'll be all right even if I don't recall them
Even if I were to fall in love with someone else, someday
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come around again
When we first talked together after school
I was searching for your smile that no-one else knew about
For some reason, my chest felt painful
To your cheerful voice far away
I feared changing
I felt that we could always stay friends
I thought that there was no such thing as an ending
Within the endless time, the fact that I was able to meet you
Made me stronger than anything else
Even if I were to make a desperate run for tomorrow
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come about again
Since the summer when you told me you'll never forget
Time has passed and just now, my tears came spilling down
I'll sear the days that I spent with you into my chest
So that I'll be all right even if I don't recall them
Even if I were to fall in love with someone else someday
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come around again
As you were dashing on the ground, your back
Was freer then the clouds that floated in the sky
And in the light that illuminates everything, I could even see
The square letters lined up in your notebook
I didn't understand the feeling known as love
So this moment in time that wouldn't return again
Taught me its meaning
I'll sear the days that I spent with you into my chest
So that I'll be all right even if I don't recall them
Even if I were to fall in love with someone else, someday
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come around again
When we first talked together after school
I was searching for your smile that no-one else knew about
For some reason, my chest felt painful
To your cheerful voice far away
I feared changing
I felt that we could always stay friends
I thought that there was no such thing as an ending
Within the endless time, the fact that I was able to meet you
Made me stronger than anything else
Even if I were to make a desperate run for tomorrow
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come about again
Since the summer when you told me you'll never forget
Time has passed and just now, my tears came spilling down
I'll sear the days that I spent with you into my chest
So that I'll be all right even if I don't recall them
Even if I were to fall in love with someone else someday
You'd always be special and important to me
And this season would come around again

吓

2009-08-29T13:22:00.001+08:00

我啊。。。可说是被吓大的。。。壁虎，癞蛤蟆，乌鸦，猫头鹰，甚至是狗。那只野狗，有一段日子一直在那楼梯边的草地上徘徊。我看别人走上那楼梯，它都没追着跑，而我已走过，它不但向我吠，还追着我。。。我又没惹它。。。简直莫名其妙嘛。乌鸦，是最近的事，在上个星期三。在上学的路上，却被它盯上，攻击我，用它那尖锐的嘴啄了我的头一下。。。它先是停站在我书包上，而当我从眼角里看见那双乌黑的翅膀时，当然是吓了一大跳，拔腿就跑咯。。。但，它并没就此放弃，继续追在我身后，也因此还我摔了一跤。而它正是在我爬起身时攻击我的。。。辛好的是，当时路上并没有很多人经过，否则真是尴尬死了。。。至于壁虎及猫头鹰，便是在我较小的时候发生的。。。壁虎嘛，它呀，可是从天空中掉下来的，降落在我的脖子上；猫头鹰呢，则是我妈妈叫我去看的。。。因为它正好停留在我家的窗前，在晚上的时候，谁知我会被吓倒。。。现在回想起，当时的我大概是被猫头鹰的那双又大又圆的眼睛吓着了吧。。。最后，就是癞蛤蟆。那时候，太阳已下山而月亮也已高挂在夜空中了。。。我走在草地上，走着走着，便感到脚上一阵冰凉。。。当时，我便赶快把脚一甩起，才发现原来是只癞蛤蟆停留在我脚上。。。现在想起这些事，还觉得有点恶心，尤其是壁虎和癞蛤蟆。。。咳。。。我是不是从小就易招惹这些事啊？而最糟糕的，便是我本来就已经够胆小的了。。。如果我没那么胆小的话，或许它们弄我时，我也就不会那么容易就被吓倒了。。。咳。。。

EL O'Level oral

2009-08-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

Had my EL O'level oral today...there's like only 4 groups today so the hall looks so spacious...pretty scary...it was so quiet and everything......anyway, i think i sort of screwed up a little 'cause for the conversation bit the teacher asked some q. and out of those q. i had like 1 or 2 not able to ans. them...the pic. too...then there's the reading...the teacher said i was too soft but she said not to worry...haiz...i just can't up my volume when i'm reading...oh...and there's this long word in the passage - memorabillia...it's like i almost trip on that word...and the word came out a little weird......i was really nervous while waiting 'cause i was the 7th person in my group of 12...plus the air-con was on, i was sort of trembling and my voice sounded 'shaky' and 'stuck'...but luckily all the teachers are female and they look pretty friendly as while i was talking they will smile and nod occassionally, unlike some who will have that stern look on their face......anyway, glad that the talking bit's over......i've never been good at oral....

home

2009-07-18T18:07:00.004+08:00

相信对许多人来说，家是最好的栖息之地。当我们在外头奔波觉得累了的时候，家，会是最好的休息站；当我们在外头处处碰壁时，家，是最好的避风港。

quote

2009-07-12T14:43:00.002+08:00

~~我们不会因为老了而停止玩耍，只会因为停止玩耍而老了。~~

friends

2009-07-04T19:14:00.006+08:00

Friends will just do things that you least expect them to. Despite all the arguments, quarrels and unhappiness, friends will still come together till the end. Life is made up of many flavours, 酸甜苦辣咸, and it is all these flavours that will become my memories as i grow...

interesting

2009-06-20T14:07:00.002+08:00

Slept at 2+ am yesterday because of the one 'smart' cockroach, 蟑小强先生/女士. Usually the 'job' of catching and killing the cockroach is my father's. But, he went back to Malaysia yesterday, so, no choice, my mother, two sisters, me and my 9-year-old 表妹 had to do the job. The cockroach was in the master bedroom. We 'played' hide-and-seek with him/her for like more than 2 hours, and still lost the 'game'. This cockroach very smart. Btw, the job of hitting the cockroach belongs to my eldest sis, The rest of us, our job was to lure him/her out. The first time he/she came out, my sis missed, and he/she went back into hiding and refused to come out for a very long time. Then, when he/she finally came out again, just as my sis was about to hit, he/she suddenly swerved, changing direction. So, my sis missed, once again. Smart right? In the end, the cockroach went and hid at the back of the wardrobe, which was too heavy for us to shift. So, we lost the 'game'.......all of us freaked when the cockroach came out.....if only my father is here.......he's probably sleeping in the bus when we were 'fighting' the cockroach......

fun

2009-06-16T12:14:00.002+08:00

......It has been fun for me for the past 2 days. =] I guess I sort of had a really good laugh. At first, I wasn't really looking forward to it, but then, it really does feel good to be away from books and to be outside. The breeze is so cooling and refreshing...and everything just looks so peaceful from there...it just feels so great and wonderful. =D

oral

2009-06-11T16:15:00.003+08:00

ok...english oral today...one word to describe...'dead'...this kind of situation is just so common...i don't know what else to expect...anyway, today's the 2nd last day of school, no need to go back for lessons and it's just so great. =] But, something's been making me so angry and upset lately...so much so that i really really HATE it....can you all just stop everything?! I know i've been very unfriendly to you all lately...but what else do you expect? I'm really clueless on how to tackle this kind of situation....so please please just stop it... =[ And, i've said this before, so stop pushing me any further......

tired

2009-06-05T16:25:00.002+08:00

Feeling quite sleepy now...'cause for the past 3 nights, i slept at only 12+ am to 1+am, and had to wake up at 6am or 7am...almost doze off in class...dead dead dead....1 wk has passed and i haven't done any hw or revised anything....so dead.......

hostel

2009-05-30T18:43:00.002+08:00

Went to the scholar's "prison" (as said by stephanie s. always) today to do the pair work for BIo SPA skill 3...at first we thought that we could surely finish within 2 hrs at most...but then, in the end we took like more than 2 and a half hrs to finish it (with breaks in between of course)...we were at the canteen...it's like there were only the 2 of us there when suddenly there's a lot of VS students coming into the canteen...and it suddenly got quite noisy...We started doing our work around 9+ am, and we only finished at around 11+ am going to 12pm......SPA skill 3 is so difficult to do......

evil

2009-05-28T17:20:00.001+08:00

This is an evil world, where evil is lurking almost everywhere. Thus, it's better for us to always think twice before speaking...otherwise, once spoken, it will be too late for regrets......

results

2009-05-24T15:43:00.002+08:00

......results...haiz...don't know what to say...guess it's what i deserve...my eldest sis's right though...i'm not smart...i only managed in my 10+ years of education to be where i am now 'cause i work harder than her...she's clever...but she's also lazy...and now, she is in her final year in poly...and sometimes, i just feel that she's doing so much better than i am...i don't know what i want out of this life i have now......my friends...somehow or rather they know where they want to be, like going to a JC or poly...my heart feels heavy...

addiction

2009-05-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

.....why must i always get addicted so easily....and once i start....i just can't stop myself....it's so frustrating....!!!!!

Yay!

2009-05-19T10:01:00.001+08:00

Haha! Finally....mid-year exam has ended. =D

handphone

2009-05-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

My handphone has been sent for checking and repair...so i won't be able to reply any sms and calls...meaning that i will be 'handphone-free' for at least a few weeks...

links

2009-05-09T13:13:00.000+08:00

Sorry i lost all the links...i tried really hard to rmb...but it just didn't work that way...so...real sorry to all...

m-y-e

2009-05-08T14:37:00.001+08:00

Hope i don't do too badly for Mid-years....*pray*

threatened

2009-04-25T16:27:00.002+08:00

When i feel threatened, i'll do anything, anything to just be able to escape...even if it means withdrawing myself from people...i hate the feeling of being forced...i WILL do what i think i have to do, and nobody, nobody can stop me. Seriously, i really feel that animals and plants are much more easier to relate to than humans......

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

2009-04-21T16:36:00.003+08:00

Yes! This is the best belated birthday present ever! Haha. Soooo happy. Still can't believe that this was actually true...it came as a big surprise to us all...anyway, when the results were announced, saw that lots and lots of people cried tears of joy...but i just couldn't seem to cry......guess i will only cry tears of sadness and not of joy?...It's kind of hard to express my happiness?excitement?(whatever) now......the feelings just so......ok...and you know what? when we were playing the 2 pieces, i could sort of feel the music in me....i don't know how to put it in words, but yeah...it's something that is different from when we participated in SYF in sec 2(maybe because i was still 'young'?).......it is just an extremely pleasant surprise. Okay now, back to reality, mid years are coming and i haven't started revising a single subject!!!!!!!!! SIANZzzzz.....haiz...

b-day

2009-04-20T18:58:00.003+08:00

Family and friends are the best! Love the presents and thanks for the well-wishes. Haha. I'm officially 16 today! I feel so old. Anyway, congrats to AHSCO who got GOLD! =D Hope TMSCO can too! JiaYou!

fever

2009-04-19T18:42:00.000+08:00

sianz...having fever for the 2nd time this month...haiz...stressed out...

wrong time

2009-04-17T19:01:00.001+08:00

....why do i always have to cough at the wrong time?...like during a performance? during tests/exams?...irritating lah...hmph...

silence

2009-04-13T16:06:00.000+08:00

无言以对。。。

total

2009-04-10T12:05:00.002+08:00

Had fever yesterday...but still went to marina barrage...the P4 were so energetic...ena and me had a hard time watching them...ena had a harder time 'cause she was the one doing most of the talking...today...i think the fever subside le...but still got cough and flu......

ss file

2009-04-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

...I actually forgot to bring SS file with all the notes inside today...scared me so much...oh. and thanks for lending me your SS ws and everything. Thanks lots! Add. math test today was still ok...but i think i got quite a few q. wrong already...and Chem. SPA...was also still quite alright i think...hope the teacher didn't see my mistake. =)

乱

2009-03-29T16:33:00.004+08:00

这个世界已经够乱的了。。。

所以只要是你能容忍的，就请忍着吧；能避免的冲突，就请避免吧。。。

我非常不愿看到任何一个人受伤。。。

我只希望，这个世界是和平的；无论是人与人之间，或是国与国之间。。。

请恕我无法理解你们的想法。。。

peace

2009-03-28T16:54:00.002+08:00

Things are getting so out of hand nowadays...and i don't know what i can do...

请让我们找回原本的平静吧！

last day

2009-03-22T16:26:00.003+08:00

Haiz...today's already the last day of...1 thing for sure...i'm not ready to go back to school at all...sometimes...just sometimes...i really hope that i will fall sick and just get an MC and stay home...i guess this is my way of escaping...even so, i know that this is not up to me to decide...

CO

2009-03-21T16:18:00.003+08:00

For this past 1 wk, it has been CO, hw, a little lessons, more CO and more hw...hope we really can get at least a gold in the upcoming SYF...

Anyway, we went for our full dress SYF rehearsal at SCH last Sunday, 15/3, then, we had practices from tues to sat, which is today. Furthermore, we also had our music exchange programn at St. Nich's today...

Don't know why i feel so tired after the exchange programn, I was sleeping in the bus back to school. Even so, I could still hear a bit of what the people around me are saying about (you all know who)....haha. Zzzz....

feelings...

2009-03-18T20:32:00.003+08:00

I guess everyone's feeling more or less the same nowadays...and, there are just some things that i can't understand...why do people (including me) always like to 钻牛角尖?It just makes us want to 'don't care about anything and just flee to somewhere else' even more...at least that's what i feel...and sometimes, I just feel that there is nothing wrong with them, it's just us, that doesn't wish to accept this fact, accept their presence......

_*How can two walk together, except they agree?*_

忙碌

2009-03-18T20:09:00.008+08:00

这个学校假期，我相信，对大多数的人来说，是一个极为忙碌的一个假期。已经好久没与小学同学通电话了。我想，就算我有那个时间，她们也未必有空吧。因为，除了我以外，另一名朋友也是在她的学校里参加华乐团的，今年4月也是要参加SYF。只可惜，这次我校的并没有与她的学校的华乐团有个交流活动。。。实在是好可惜哟。

*随着岁月的流逝，人们的脸上也都多了一丝疲惫。。。。。。*

progress report

2009-03-12T18:50:00.002+08:00

took back my progress report today...hmm...i would say that i'm quite satisfied with it, even though there's still a lot of room for improvement. =)

crowded

2009-03-06T16:22:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to post much, but here's what i have to say: 1 wk never come online and my blog suddenly become "so crowded"...can detect the tone right? It's so super easy to detect my tone now...ok ok...this is not the usual me, but i just feel like being sarcastic at least for this moment...Grrr.......0(-_-)0

awkward

2009-02-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

On the whole, this wk is still alright...except for a small portion...so pls pls pls stop saying that............=(

dua dai ji

2009-02-21T20:02:00.002+08:00

Went for the chi. aesthetics excursion today after CO. The drama was funny...then in between they speak some dialect, which i don't really understand...it's a bit sarcastic though...anyway, was very tired today. I was already falling asleep halfway through, 'cause yesterday i only slept at 12.30am and had to wake up at 6.30am...is like i seldom have so little of sleep for like only 5 hrs. But overall, today was still quite ok...only reached home at 6.15pm...out for almost the whole day from 7.10am...Zzzz...

happenings

2009-02-18T17:26:00.003+08:00

On mon. 16/2, our class was scolded by mr. eng...he was so fierce...is like he's not the only teacher who is unhappy with my class...we sort of made a lot of the teachers angry and disappointed in us...anyway, yah, he screamed at the whole class...it was extremely loud...he bang the table suddenly de...those people sitting at the first row very dangerous for them. But afterwards, he did apologise to those people who are 'innocent'...although it is still very.....

On tues. 17/2, we had the selection test...die lor...i totally screwed up the whole thing...i was super nervous...then while playing i trembled (don't know they notice not) , so i was unable to 'jump' successfully for the 'chan ge' part....i really cannot do things in front of people even if it's 1 on 1...hate this me...and i know that this part of me is just going to be my greatest problem or obstacle in my life no matter what i'm doing......

On wed. 18/2, 1 chi. teacher came in and started asking locals to go for the chi. debate thing...eileen got 'sabo-ed' by others first, then me!....stupid....i told the teacher that i cannot...but she insisted that i write down my name, tel. and class....stupid...in the end i 'sabo-ed' ena (i know i very bad, but really sorry to pull you down as well)....die liao...then, got chem. and ss test...also screwed the thing up....it just seems that i can't do anything right......... =(

break out

2009-02-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Break Out today at the esplanade as part of our aesthetic excursion....the thing was funny...but the scene at the church there with the sisters when the prisoners were surrounded, i thought it was quite sad...anyway, i like the effects and music...just like the whole Break Out. =D